MY NIGHTMARE
My nightmare isn’t falling or even falling
naked with strangers amused
by what I try each day to hide,
this biology of strangeness,
no, my nightmare isn’t forgetting
my pants because that sounds
suspiciously like fun
or at least some sort of joyful malfeasance
orchestrated in rain
while dogs bark manic interrogations
in the night and buckshot
rings through the dark
and I’m singing your name
to some randomly selected forgotten god.
To be distracted by pleasure
isn’t my nightmare
but it once was before
all the cartilage inside us
hardened to bone
and I marveled at your one ear
you never allowed
anyone to kiss, not even me,
and maybe that was
a kind of nightmare,
that refusal. No one ever warned me
to fear my hands
but they should have
known the things they would do
or not do. The knobs turned and knots undone
because there is
pleasure in erasure.
Once you let me watch you
bathe, the tub sudded
with lilac soap
and we hardly said a word
as the water cooled
and the soap fell
away from your skin like a shoal of clouds
and you were new
and unknowably clean
and beside you I failed
to dream of anything else.
2 comments:
I really like this work. Powerful lines in the middle, especially:
or at least some sort of joyful malfeasance
orchestrated in rain
while dogs bark manic interrogations
in the night and buckshot
rings through the dark
and I’m singing your name
to some randomly selected forgotten god.
Thanks for posting.
Wow! I really can't say anything else. This is excellent, and that is an understatement. Okay, I also thought it was a fun and quirky love poem, and it is very hard for me to like love poems. I'm very selective in that respect, but this was great - another understatement :-)
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